A way to begin

self-understanding

It’s been too long since I sat down to write you. For some reason, I’ve been avoiding writing and posting. I’ve asked myself why I can’t seem to sit down and write and share my thoughts? I’ve mentioned this to friends: that I don’t know why I can’t just write and post something. I’ve logged on to my website, but I just stare at the screen, then close the tab, and walk away.

In the spirit of self-understanding, I’ve asked myself to answer this. Why am I so challenged to open a new Draft, write, and click that Publish button?

• I’m tired: I’ve worked so hard the past few years, editing and finishing my book, I don’t feel like thinking or writing anything.
• I’m busy: my mind is on all the pre-publishing tasks still to do, and I can’t seem to focus on writing anything new.
• I’m scattered, lost: being focused for so long on finishing this book, what now? I feel like I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, wondering if I’m going to fly or fall.
• I’m afraid: maybe my writing won’t be as good as it was in the past; maybe I’ve lost my mojo.
• I’m stuck: my brain doesn’t seem to want to get going; I get an idea and think of writing about it, and my brain says, Nope, not today.
• I’m disconnected: I’ve been cocooning, alone, away from the world, and binge-watching shows on Netflix.
• I’m sad: looking at our world, at the anger and hatred, evil and violence, and I wonder if I should write about this, but again, my brain says, Nope, not today.
• I’m frustrated: I want to connect, and inspire those who feel sad, stuck, scattered and lost, too, but what could I possibly say or write that might change our world?
• Wait. I’m almost done writing this! Will it change our world? No, but maybe this is the way to begin again: writing, posting, sharing, connecting, changing . . .

I want to return soon and write to you again. I want to open a new Draft, write, and click that Publish button. There are so many things I want to share. So I’ll try.