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Months after Sam’s death, and shortly before he was gone too, my father, always trying to cheer me on, reassured me that I’d find joy again. I disagreed. I didn’t want joy, happiness. I was consumed with grief, and wanted to die too. He worried about this, I’m sure, which […]

What I learned from a soldier

What I learned from a soldier… About strength It’s okay to cry… About caring Take your vitamins… Stay away from dark alleys… Watch your back… I love you… About illness I’m so sorry you’re sick… I’m very concerned… Have you been eating right? Taking your vitamins? 

Reggie, my heart therapy

He sees me June 27, 2014. He loves a freshly cut lawn. He does a down-dog-stretch before squeezing through the rectangular flap of a door. Outside. Sniffing a path, he finds a patch of sun and flops onto his side. Lying still for a minute, he soaks up the warmth […]

Think of the “Like” button as a “Support” button

"Like" Button

Happy stories, sad stories Happy or funny stories compel people to “Like” and “Share” them. Inspirational, uplifting and amusing stories sometimes go viral. That’s the incredible thing about the internet. It can inform, inspire, entertain, and connect us. But, it is counterintuitive to “Like” mournful stories much less “Share” them. Isolating further […]

Day 22, “Earth”

World

Poem #22: “Earth” On a bike ride we found a lost ball, a huge plaything cornered by the wind in a drainage ditch. Caked with dirt, we noticed it looked like Earth, A blue marble under the grime. Sam begged to keep it. So we brought it home, hosed it down, […]

Day 20, “Zoo”

Chameleon

Poem #20: “Zoo” Zookeeper’s fingers, relaxed Splayed Leafy chameleon, sticky toes Stayed Don’t be loud, touch Gently Note his eyes, orbit Independently Scaly thing, never misses A fly Spellbound children, eyes Up high On the mini-dinosaur’s Gripping tail In and around knotty branches Going pale   We touched a snake, a […]

Quiet Darkness

Sam, 2004

A crowd gathers nightly Watching their sun’s show Applauding its brilliance Lovers, strangers, children and sages are one As the sun takes its bow Curtains of sea and sky close the performance Separating now into quiet darkness They hold on to their sun’s beauty Memorizing it with hope

Rebecca, my friend and confidant

Rebecca

Depression afflicts millions directly, and millions more who are relatives or friends of victims. It has been estimated that as many as one in ten Americans will suffer from the illness…which, in its graver, clinical manifestation takes upward of twenty percent of its victims by way of suicide. – William […]

Dad, I miss you

“Hi Dad, it’s me.” “Hi Dee. Heidi!” (laughing) “Hey, Heidi!” (smirking) “Hi, Dad.” “Is this the person with whom I am speaking?” “Yes, Dad.” (laughing) “This is the person with whom you are speaking.” (laughing) “How are you, Deanna Lynn?” “I’m okay, Dad. I wanted to pick up the phone […]